If la la la means I love you, then ha ha ha means... What? It means I am laughing my ass off. I received a strange message today from a friend something along the lines- I will find someone someday etc, etc. To which I wittingly replied along the lines of- "I am not built for relationship because I am vain and selfish".
This is not PR campaign crap here not-so-avid readers. I can honestly declare that I am vain as I am selfish. If some idiot were to be so unfortunate to be in a relationship with me, he will come to realize the fundamental truth- I am the Emperor, I am the President and I am the King. So I had to blog about this before I lose my momentum.
I have exhausted my selflessness and my humility to my career. My friends will tell you that I am a thoughtless bitch who cares very little about what they think of me. I love my friends and this is the only way I attempt to be someone decent. My real friends can tell you horror stories upon horror stories of my temperament and my being weird. Good thing, I am very witty and funny and I show genuine care for them in times they need me. Otherwise, I would be without friends.
When I was talking about me perceived future life and death while having lunch, I made my strangely devoted assistant cry. I was stunned because while I know I will die with the least number of regrets than most people, I realized how I have become valuable to many people despite my personality flaws. Lately, I have come to know that I have won over a number of unexpected people who all commonly believe in what I can do and achieve for our small town. I think what I do matters more in the area of career than in my personal life. I mean social life or personal life is something that is mundane and once in awhile can be injected with some amount of interest but it need not progress and develop into something that anyone should focus on really.
I have my doubt on the wisdom of what my friend told me but I guess he is somehow right. Could it be there is hope for this sarcastic, vile-tempered, selfish and overly vain bitch? Hmmm...we'll see when the time comes then will we? Ha ha ha means I was laughing but Ha...ha...ha means I am faltering. Could it be the joke is on me after all? I will be really pissed off because I do not like taking back my words or the strongly-held belief I have nurtured all these years. I do not like the idea of having the song Ironic of Alanis humming in my head while I take it all back.
3 comments:
dear dyanne,
i think where you are is where you should be. if you had a boyfriend before now, what a distraction that would have been (take me for example! hahaha!)! it's not because of vanity or selfishness that you are single, it's because you still had other things to accomplish. besides you are not without a love life because you are clearly loved by everyone around you! but maybe patience is not one of your virtues and that is what is being tested? hahaha!
love,
cai
Hahaha by the way I have tickets for jan 7 to 9 na for Cebu but I need details to get tickets for singapore. email me your itinerary please:D
I submit to your great wisdom my dear partner. I think you are right on many accounts hehehe miss you!
dyne,
cebu is only jan 7 to jan 8 then straight to manila. we're leaving manila on jan 12 SQ917 at 1415. jan 15 leaving sng to brisbane at 930am.
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