RELATIONSHIP STATUS

I had a kick at laughing at myself when I opened my Facebook account this afternoon. I was thoroughly amused to see that my mother posted this picture on my wall.

You can imagine how hard I laugh because it struck a cord and I have to admit it is quite true! It was so funny I knew right away I had to blog about it. I know Mama means well when she posted this pic on my FB wall. So I could not make myself take any offense at all. I am just so disappointed I did not come up with it first.

I am far from being a prayerful person nowadays. I know I could some more prayers in my life. Prayers are not always about asking God for something. It is an intimate conversation to one's Creator. I have often given advice to many of my single lady friends that they should pray for lovelife as what was counselled to me by my very wise aunt Marilyn a long long time ago. I have had two "spinster" aunts who ended up happily married because they entrusted their love lives to God. Tita Marilyn said that if we are able to pray for important decisions and things in our lives, why should praying for a lovelife any different. You should pray for discernment and help on having someone who will share your life. So, I try to share the wisdom to my less lucky but relationship worthy single girlfriends.

However, I am still adamant about this prayer thing. I talk the talk but I do not walk the walk. I do not really pray for my lovelife. I have too many things I pray for and I do not think my love life merits that much attention to pray for any way. In a grand scheme of things, I do not think it matters much if I do end up with someone and procreate. I think I better stick with my plan of having a kid before I turn 35. I know I will be a good mother, but I cannot guarantee anything else. I have yet to believe that I will end up with someone for good. Somehow, at the back of my mind, I know I am not cut out to be someone's wife or girlfriend.

Please hold the comments and the sympathy party, I am simply saying, I have yet to enjoy fully my independence to give it up so soon. Had I not been born with breasts and a vajajay, I would be considered an elusive bachelor. But since I am a woman, I am called a spinster.

I think I have uttered just a small prayer once years ago where I said, "Lord, Suprise me!" I am not quite sure if I live to regret that prayer. Then again, it could be just one of the many prayers where I got a NO. hehehe. I have always believed that God answers prayers. It is not always what you want or like but you will always get an answer.

So, here is follow-up prayer on lovelife and relationship status I uttered years ago with few additions.

Dear Lord, I still stand by my original supplication. Surprise me! I do pray for all my single lady friends who will make wonderful girlfriends and wives and mothers. Lord, please answer their prayers. Give them discernment and courage to determine and the signs to recognize the One, You have reserved for them. Please transform their disillusion into hope. Give them patience so as they do not get distracted and be lead to more heartbreaks because of impatience. Lord, please keep my own prayer for my love life on file to be reviewed at a later date. AMEN.

Is it me or did I just dare God to surprise me despite my strongly held cynicism? Whatever it is that you think, know that I am sincere in my prayer about other single ladies I consider my friends. I know in my heart that they deserve to have someone special in their lives. Yes, Tanya, Fritz and Cai. I am referring to you in case, it escaped your attention. I know you ladies can relate to the image I posted at the beginning of this blog.

Just to make your day not-so-avid readers click on the player to here this sound clip from a movie.

I'm not shooting for a "successful" relationship at this point, I'm just looking for something that will prevent me from throwing myself in front of a bus. I'm keeping my expectations very very low. -Lucille of the Movie, "Bye Bye Love"